Hard Times

I made a hard decision and I’m standing by it. It’s tough and I’m sad and I know it’s a matter of time before it gets better, but I know it gets better.  I know there’s nothing more I can do right now. My mind doesn’t stop bothering me with new ideas to satiate my sadness (nothing helps). Discipline, conviction, and strength are born from despair but my decision was made before it got bad enough to want to stay away.  What a mess.

Here’s a Poem by Bob Schneider

i’ll hold onto this sadness
as long as god let’s me
and treasure each fragrant drop
pour it over my heart
and wash myself clean